A chronic, severe and disabling brain disorder where a person interprets reality abnormally. It is characterised by delusions, hallucinations, disordered thinking and behaviours. It’s not known what causes schizophrenia, but it’s believed that genetics and environment contribute to the development of the disease.
My dad and my son's bio mom has schizophrenia. Both are and was abusive individuals. I think most of it had to do with them not getting the proper treatment and taking their medication. It is a hard topic for me though because of what was done to me as a child, and seeing what was done to my son as a child.
Schizophrenia doesn't sound fun to have but I like a song called Schizophrenia. It's by Jukebox The Ghost, if anyone wants to check it out.
It hurts to see anybody suffer. What more when something that is beyond one's control such as in one's DNA. I hope in future there is a cure.
Our oldest son Jesse 26 has paranoid schizophrenia and the poor guy he first showed severe symptoms at only 1 1/2 years old. He would hallucinate and see and hear things that looked and sounded very real to him and all tended to be terrifying. Also he would be the best behaved polite sweetest kid with the biggest heart you can imagine and then with no warning he would suddenly snap from time to time and like an ER dr observed , you would have thought he had seen exorcist (he DIDNT we didnt even have a tv until he was 8) .. you would have thought he was Possessed, and then when he would snap out of it, he would be confused and not remember what happened at first and then start to remmeber and then because he was truly SUCH a very good boy and a big conscience he would feel so bad about stuff he said and did he would cry and at 5 one time he said I wish I was a vcr tape and someone could rewind me or I wish God could erase me and start over. Poor baby! Broke my heart. He didnt get properly diagnosed until age 11. and right before that I found him rocking on bedroom floor sobbing and I held him and asked him what was wrong and he was shaking all over and he said "I dont want to die but mom I am Sorry but I am going to HAVE to kill myself because every night dark shadows come in my room and tell me to hurt you and the other kids and dad and I dont want them to win ever because I love you guys so I figure I have to kill myself to make sure they can never make me hurt you. " I told him he was very brave and good to tell me that and he just needed help. He was hospitalized for a full month (which he was glad about he desperatately wanted to be ok and be good). He was on meds thru teens then but common to many paranoid schizophrenics he is paranoid of meds too so once he was 18 he stopped taking meds. He lives on ssi disability but is able to live independently and he is eccentric but actually in an endearing way not bad.. He has the biggest heart and is always helpng homeless people and the people who are down on their luck or outcast etc. He is exceptionally intellligent and wise beyond his years and funny too. I am so in awe at how well he does especially since he is not on meds I asked him.. Jesse do you think you were like miraculously healed or something because you function so well. He smiled and hugged me and said Idont like you to worry mom but the truth is I still hear and see things every single day but what I did is I spent weeks alone in my room years back and taught myself to be able to tell the difference between what is real and what is not even though that is hard because it all sounds and looks real. I have become very good at this I noticed as long as I dont get under too much stress and also dont allow myself too much time to overthink, I have to keep my mind busy reading or helping people or going online or playing video games otherwise I can start to slip and get delusional I noticed and lose control. So I just havve to be careful and observant. He is such a light in the dark in this world. When I cry at how much he has suffered so far beyond his fair share in this life, he chuckles and says its ok mom dont cry it has made me stronger and more compassionate to others. I dont regret anything.
My paternal grandmother was diagnosed as schizophrenic in the late 70's / early 80's & spent most of my childhood in a state hospital. I didn't even meet her until after I was 10 or 11. Later it was determined that she was more than likely misdiagnosed and actually suffered from manic depression. She had 10 children, all relatively close together. In my opinion 10 children would be stressful in any situation. Personally, I never seen signs of any type of disorder in her. Fortunately she was "rescued" from the state hospital & lived her final days in a nice retirement facility that specialized in elderly residents with her problems. She passed away Nov 2013 & I will miss her for the rest of my days. I wish I had had more time with her.
My husband is schizophrenic, and yes, I knew this before we started dating. It's a challenge, but we're able to manage. Medications definitely help if you are working with your doctor to find the right balance.
I hate both the term and social perception of what this disorder really is! The art for the page is quite nice though. Although schizophenia does translate from its roots to 'split' 'mind', it differs very much from multiple personallity disorder. People need to learn this and learn not to fear schizophrenics any more than anyone else. Almost everyone knows someone with this disorder, but does not know that they suffer from it. Just as the person themself may not know. This is largely due to being scared of being evaluated and labled as crazy. There is something a bit off about all of us! Stigma should be applied to all of us or none of us, until one acts out in a way harmful to one's self or others.